Well we are dealing with a small setback this month.  I was tempted to start this post talking about how we have failed this month but I couldn’t let myself admit defeat.  The reason is if I do that then I will just give up all together.  No, we are not defeated we are just having a small setback and we need to dust ourselves off and start right back up again.

What happened is I went back to school along with the fact that there is some pretty heavy stuff going on in my family right now and it’s taking some time to adjust.  I just haven’t been able to get it together enough to do my regular grocery shopping, so our fridge looks like a bunch of bachelors live here.  We’ve been eating out like crazy.  I swore I was gonna go grocery shopping today but that didn’t work out either so I’m gonna try again and go tomorrow.  Starting with getting a good nights sleep tonight so I can wake up early, take a shower and get my butt out of the house.

The school schedule has been rough because I go Monday and Tuesday night, and then my husband goes Wednesday night.  So it’s definitely taking some getting used to as far as cooking dinner and that sort of thing.  Going to school after you have kids is a whole new experience.  It’s  certainly interesting trying to do homework when a two year old is demanding your constant attention.

So, yes, we have spent extra money on eating out this month and there was the little incident yesterday where my car was towed and I had to pay $135 to get it out.  Yep, we all live and learn right? 

However, even though we didn’t follow our budget exactly we have still kept up with all our other budget cuts and we have not bought anything on credit.  That is major.  I am disappointed that we were not able to pay as much as we wanted towards are debt this month but I am so proud that we have gone the entire 6 months without charging anything to a credit card.  That alone is amazing and we plan to keep it that way.

We have been on our debt diet for almost 5 months now.  I really can’t believe we’ve made it this far.  It’s been a very difficult road and I’m a little embarrassed even to admit how difficult.  I thought it would be hard at first but then would get easier as we got used to it…but no.  It is really a daily struggle not to spend money.  Everyday I wake up in the morning I have to fight the urge to go shopping or take Eva to lunch, or something else that would require money.  Money is a lot like food.  You can be addicted to spending it, and you can fight that addiction but you can never cut it out of your life completely because you need it to live.  Unless your like this guy then that’s a whole different story.

These past 5 months I’ve learned a lot of things about myself and about money in general but I’ve really been thinking a lot lately about the 3 different reasons for spending money.

1. Needs – things like food, shelter, electricity, fuel.  There are really very few things that we actually need.

2. Wants – clothes, furniture, pedicures, getting my hair done.  Every time I want to buy something I ask myself “Is this a want or a need?”  It is always a want.  After the weekly trip to the grocery store, I have everything I need.  The hardest things not to buy are clothes for me, clothes for Eva, toys and books for Eva, and books for me.  However I REALLY struggle with the whole want vs. need thing when it comes to things like new furniture for Eva’s room.  I HATE the furniture in her room which we bought from craigslist when she was a baby to save money so that we could buy her something nice when she got older.  Well now she is older and I am so ready to get her the something nice.  We went to Ikea the other day to scope out some things, that was a BIG MISTAKE.  We found a daybed there with two overhead cabinets that would go PERFECT in her playroom.  Now it is taking everything in me not to just hop in the car and go get it, and it’s not even for her bedroom!  I have gotten my hair done once since we started this and I had to sell our fire pit to do it.  It’s been 8 weeks since then and just starting to get to the point where it needs to be done again.  I’ll probably wait another month or two and then see what else I can sell around the house.

3. Convenience – This sort of fits in with both of the two previous categories.  There are many things of convenience that we could argue are a need but really would just make our life easier.  Such as going to the car wash, or eating out.  It is a huge challenge everyday to wake up and try to figure out what I’m going to do with Eva that day to keep her entertained.  Since she doesn’t have anyone to play with (besides me) I always feel like I need to take her somewhere fun at least a few times a week.  Also, I’m the kind of person that needs to get out of the house or I’ll go crazy.  It would make my life so much easier if I could just take her out to lunch a couple of times a week or to the children’s museum or someplace like that.  But those things all cost money.  We are both dreadfully sick of the free places we’ve been going all summer like the library and the community pool.

Why am I putting myself through such torture you might ask?  The progress we’ve made does make it all worth it.  So far we’ve paid $12,344 towards our credit cards ($6,000 of that was from our tax return) and we still owe $9,600.  I write down those numbers not for you but for me.  So I can see how ridiculously in credit card debt we let ourselves become.  Imagine what we could be doing with this money right now if we weren’t paying off our stupid cards with it!?  To help us get it paid off a little sooner Chris took out $1000 from a 401k he had at a previous job.  That will make it so we will have one more card paid off by November, then we can just focus on Christmas, and start up again on the last two cards totaling $4,600 after the holidays.  When I think about all of the sacrifices we are having to make just to pay off all these cards it makes me sick.

Can you believe how optimistic I was when this first started?

http://www.modernmommyblog.com/index.php/2009/03/25/my-debt-diet/

I don’t know where I was getting my math from in our 1 month post.??

http://www.modernmommyblog.com/index.php/2009/04/27/we-made-it-1-month/

Here is the plain and awful truth. Since I stopped working in October our savings has dwindled and dwindled until this past week when it was completely gone. DH doesn’t get paid until next Tuesday and we have about $160 to our name right now.   So you can imagine my despair when I received a reminder e-mail that one of our credit card payments is due this Saturday and the minimum payment is $250.

Luckily DD was sleeping so that I could fret and despair by myself for a couple of hours while I stared at our bank account balance and tried to figure out how we are going to make this work. I finally came to the conclusion that we either need to get all of our credit cards paid off PRONTO or I need to go back to work. Dh and I both don’t want that because we feel it is best for little E to have a consistent caregiver and that person is ME.

So we came up with an eight month plan where we spend absolutely no money except for what is necessary to live on and we put all our money towards our credit cards. If we can do this we will have them paid off in November of this year. That’s not so bad right?

In order to find out how long it will take to pay off our cards I found this website that calculates it all for you.
Then I printed out our budget and crossed out everything that could be spared and reduced the rest to the bare minimum. This is what it ended up looking like.

-Of course we have all our mandatory bills like our mortgage, second mortgage, hoa, auto insurance, and utilities.
-No more gym
-No more chiropractor/massages
-No hair cuts, for me anyway (I know…YIKES)
-Deferring our student loans
-Grocery’s $300
-Gas $175
-Entertainment/Dining out $80
-Clothing $30
-Household $30

This basically means that I cannot buy ANYTHING that I don’t need. It also means that we can’t take any big summer vacations or go to an expensive restaurant. But if it is only for eight months I can live with it. If there is something that we really really want to do, like see Wicked for our anniversary, or take Eva to Disney on Ice like I was really wanting to do then we might have to cut back on some other areas as well. Like getting rid of cable or cutting back on our cell phone use.

I’m hoping and praying that by the end of this experience I am a better person and I will be able to live with less for the rest of my life. At least I know I will have less stress in my life.

I’m already so proud that we walked to the grocery store last night and only spent $25 for the whole week!

Oh and I was very relieved when I called the credit card company and they told me they would give us a one time reprieve on our payment this month. Meaning we don’t have to pay them anything until next month and we will not be punished at all! That was a relief.

Tomorrow I will share my list of things I figured out we can do for free or practically free this summer so we aren’t completely stuck in the house.

*photo credit: flickr

My husband bought me Randy Pausch’s book “The last Lecture.” I was so moved by his story and have really been  getting a lot out of his book. The main focus is  basically about how he was able to live out some of  his childhood dreams. Naturally it got me thinking about what my dreams were as a child. This is the list I came up with so far.

1. Be WonderWoman
2. Learn to play the piano (and be good at it)
3. Be Anne of Green Gables long lost cousin so I could visit her in beautiful  Novia Scotia
4. Help suffering children
5. Own a horse
6. Be a “super mom”
7. Save the world

I have only semi-realized one of these dreams, number 4.  I went to school so that I could work with disadvantaged kids and enjoyed working in that field for over 4 years (until I became a full-time mom).

I don’t think I have reached “super-mom” status yet.  Talk to me in another 6 years when I have more children and am carting them off to soccer practice, spanish and piano lessons, and holding a full time job while going to school for my PHD.

No, seriously, I hope to accomplish a few more things on that list at some point in my life.  I plan to make a mind movie to help motivate me along the way.

So…what were your childhood dreams?  Have you accomplished them?  I would love to know!

Since we just had a brand new mall open up down the street I spend most of my time shopping there.  It is an outdoor mall so kinda hot in the summer but at night after the sun goes down is a nice time to go plus they have misters and a water play area for the kids.  It’s a great place to go and hang out when you are tight on money because you can just walk around and the kids can play for free.  Right next to the play area is all the kids stores like childrens place, gymboree, pumpkin patch, build a bear, and the disney store.  Of course this is great marketing but it is really convienent too since those are pretty much the only stores I frequent since becoming a mom!

For Grocery Stores I love going to the new Fresh and Easy that is very close by. It is so convienent. Do you have one by you? It is a new chain here in the U.S. from Great Britain. They have pre-prepared foods and lot’s of fresh fruits and vegatables. It is a very small store and is fast and easy to check out and get on your way.